The year gone by - 2012

Take the plunge – you may never find out otherwise. Life is a bitch and a fairy tale! All depends on perspective! Wise people have often said the same things and crystallized the essence of life into simple one lines! Humans indignantly battle this truth and finally almost like a prophecy coming true, realization strikes! But experience we must. This year has been about experiencing a new home, writing lesser than I had promised to, chasing a few dreams, giving up a few and about simplifying my life. I have been displaced a lot more from my beliefs about belonging, purpose and desire. Primarily reconciling to the fact that physical confines and boundaries are merely a way of looking at a world setup in the medieval times. Purpose can be found in solemn dreams and desire can be fulfilled inside one self. The most notable aspect of this year was the musical journey. Structure strangely creates an unforced restrain in creativity which makes the pursuit almost exponentially more charming. All these years I just knew sounds that added beats to tunes, now I know how to just look at time as a new dimension that can dance a ballad with musical notes. I discovered so many new people, made so many new strong bonds and formed a queer new bond with myself. I am happy for 2012 has ended and I have several new impressions to add to my personality. How though will 2013 turn out? We shall see.

Archives

Cleaning up a computer disk these days is almost like cleaning up closets during my childhood. One always found lost money, treasure, notes, gifts, collections and for a brief moment one was taken back in time. I realized I write a lot, I just don't post enough. I think the best way to tame my mind is to get it to write. So on my disk I found fragments of my life all scattered in text files. Just picking up a few and posting them here. Hope you are all having a lovely year. I need to get back and write to the real world I know!

Connections

Are my words making any sense?

Do you just sit back read and smirk?

Or cast that look like you knew it all

Or do you just wonder if u can live with this for now?

Or maybe you just want to close doors,You just may not know how and when

Or maybe this is a nice muse that gets u past your day

or is there something else I cant see and you cant see

Not right now and maybe we will together?

Tanhaai

Raat ki chaadar odhe hue. Tanhai ki jhalak dikhaai di.

Kkarvat badlee tho tumhaari saans chu si gayee...

Aur tanhaal ki numaishi dekh chand chip sa gaya!

Izaazat

Izaazat chahti hun khud se sumjhaata karne ki.

khud se dosti karne ki.

waqt ke saath aur umeedon se pare chalne ki.

shaayad talaash ko khatm karne ki.

Yun toh saath rahungee sada, 

Is talaash mai banti hui paaoon kabhee tho us pal ki izaazat chahtee hun.

Anjaane mai khamosh ho kuch bolun jo tum sunna na chaho...tho us gustaakh ki izaazat chahti hun.

Is izazat maangne ki khata karne ki izazat chahti hun..

Found two poems from the movie Udaan which I loved:

Udaan

Jo lehron se aage nazar dekh paati toh tum jaan lete main kya sochta hoon,

Wo aawaz tumko bhi jo bhed jaati toh tum jaan lete main kya sochta hoon.

Zid ka tumhare jo parda sarakta toh khidkiyon se aage bhi tum dekh paate,

Aankhon se aadaton ki jo palken hatate toh tum jaan lete main kya sochta hoon.

Meri tarah khud par hota zara bharosa toh kuchh door tum bhi saath-saath aate,

Rang meri aankhon ka baant-te zara sa toh kuchh door tum bhi saath-saath aate,

Nasha aasmaan ka jo choomta tumhe bhi, hasraten tumhari naya janm paatin,

Khud doosre janam mein meri udaan chhoone kuchh door tum bhi saath-saath aate.

Joote

Chhoti-chhoti chhitrayi yaadein

Bichhi hui hain lamhon ki lawn par

Nange pair unpar chalte-chalte

Itni door chale aaye

Ki ab bhool gaye hain ki

Joote kahan utaare the.

Aedi komal thi, jab aaye the.

Thodi si naazuk hai abhi bhi.

Aur nazuk hi rahegi

In khatti-meethi yaadon ki shararat

Jab tak inhe gudgudati rahe.

Sach, bhool gaye hain

Ki joote kahan utaare the.

Par lagta hai,

Ab unki zaroorat nahin.

Thats it from the treasure of archives for now.