Another year gone past, fewer blogs read and none updated. Maybe I am not really made for this entire share and care blog space! Or maybe I am just lazy. Possibly my thoughts beat my typing speed; or maybe they just don't make sense in a sentence. Whatever it is, I decided its time to catch hold of them and start to update my blog once again.
The last few weeks have been interesting - Extreme work, extreme socializing, extreme laziness, extreme sleep deprivation, extreme pressures-I guess you get the drift. I have realized that I am happiest in extreme situations except for extreme "nothingness" that I cant deal with. I met most dear friends after a very long time, I indulged in conversations and found a new hangout joint - "Boca Grande!" I am not sure what it is about this place but it just feels good doing nothing here. Maybe cos it is so close from work that it feels good to take off in between and find some "nothing" time. Maybe its the fact that everyone around seems in no hurry, like they have nothing pressing on their mind. Maybe its the fact that conversations and silences just happen at this place. I know that I will visit this place often enough to have memories of it, a few years from now.
I had started to write a play and ended up pressing the delete button and losing most of it. It was annoying but the flip side is that I get to re-write with new sentences yet again.My new apartment is getting done and I hope to move in soon. An audio- room is the highlight of it. Been exploring various sound receivers and speakers. It is phenomenal, how much sound we cant hear or comprehend! I wonder for the more sensitive species how does music sound?
Been trying to break away from my schedule and walk/run again. Has not happened and I realized I am not that determined after all:-( I decided to slow down this weekend, read, write and sleep.
Across these miles I wish you well.
May nothing haunt your heart but sleep.
May you not sense what I don't tell.
May you not dream, or doubt, or weep.
May what my pen this peaceless day
Writes on this page not reach your view
Till its deffered print lets you say
It speaks to someone else than you.
- Across by Vikram Seth
I smiled at you because I thought that you
Were someone else; you smiled back; and there grew
Between two strangers in a library
Something that seemed like love; but you loved me
(If thats the word) because you thought that I
Was other than i was. And by and by
We found we'd been mistaken all the while
From the first glance, that first mistaken smile.
- Mistaken by Vikram Seth.
Been reading his poetry today, yet another random flipping of pages, thoughts and nothingness that feels good.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Sunday, January 06, 2008
365 days gone past yet again
Just a quick note on the last year that went by. I am not a big believer in celebrating these universal cliched and important days simply because its too pressurizing to live up to their expectations. After putting in all that effort, I am mostly left wondering - Was it worth it??
But that is besides the point. Time is ticking, another year has gone by and the sun is still rising!
When I look back at this year a few words flash in my mind:
"Travel"
Noida, Chennai, Indore, Nagpur, Mumbai, London, Halifax, Edinburgh, South Africa, Berlin, Singapore, Matheran, Nandi Hills! About a 10th of the year was spent at airports, aircrafts, queues. Loved the safari in South Africa. Enjoyed the walk in Edinburgh. Discovered that Indore is a shoppers paradise and my second home! Reaffirmed my faith in the fact that "Dilli! Not a place for me!". Caught up with people everywhere. Some near dear, some random, some mere acquaintances and some maybe I could have done without;-). Of course hated the traffic scene in Bangalore and added to it by driving around mostly.
"Discovery"
I guess all years, moments are really about discovering something new. A few I ran into this year are
Those who know me, possibly think that I am a jabber mouth.But I do thrive on conversation. When I don't find anyone I tend to have them in my head.BTW hold on! I meant conversation- a two sided exchange of words.
I have had the most interesting conversations this year with a range of people. I have learnt that unexpected people can tell u the most remarkable things, strange connections can happen just like that and the blogging world has just way too many streams of data leading to information pollution;-)
Any ways folks, writing this from Heathrow airport waiting for my next connection. I hope to write more often this year around. To the all who cared to read - Happy New Year and keep visiting.
But that is besides the point. Time is ticking, another year has gone by and the sun is still rising!
When I look back at this year a few words flash in my mind:
"Travel"
Noida, Chennai, Indore, Nagpur, Mumbai, London, Halifax, Edinburgh, South Africa, Berlin, Singapore, Matheran, Nandi Hills! About a 10th of the year was spent at airports, aircrafts, queues. Loved the safari in South Africa. Enjoyed the walk in Edinburgh. Discovered that Indore is a shoppers paradise and my second home! Reaffirmed my faith in the fact that "Dilli! Not a place for me!". Caught up with people everywhere. Some near dear, some random, some mere acquaintances and some maybe I could have done without;-). Of course hated the traffic scene in Bangalore and added to it by driving around mostly.
"Discovery"
I guess all years, moments are really about discovering something new. A few I ran into this year are
- I have friends/acquaintances in almost any place I visit.
- There are a few friends I can pick up a conversation with just like yesterday no matter how long the haitus' in between.
- No matter how much I plan, I always do my tax investments a day before the deadline.
- No matter how much of a seasoned travel I become, I always have the most action packed travel and I always run to the airport to board my flight wishing I don't miss it.
- I have discovered a new perfume for the year;-)
- The Mayawatis', Umabhartis' will continue to have morchas and I shall continue to be stuck in traffic jams forever.
- I shall keep buying books at a faster rate than I can read em!
- I shall spend eternity in trying to find what is the ultimately satisfying job!
- I am a foolish romantic!
Those who know me, possibly think that I am a jabber mouth.But I do thrive on conversation. When I don't find anyone I tend to have them in my head.BTW hold on! I meant conversation- a two sided exchange of words.
I have had the most interesting conversations this year with a range of people. I have learnt that unexpected people can tell u the most remarkable things, strange connections can happen just like that and the blogging world has just way too many streams of data leading to information pollution;-)
Any ways folks, writing this from Heathrow airport waiting for my next connection. I hope to write more often this year around. To the all who cared to read - Happy New Year and keep visiting.
Thursday, January 03, 2008
Stuck in a moment
In totality she says I exist
In the mind,heart and her inner self
Yet I see another shadow linger by
In those spaces that I reckon were mine
We laugh we glare we look into each others eyes
I reach out and see a reflection in that twinkle
A reflection which is not mine
A hope that does not have me
I smile back like I did not notice
I get back and toss on my bed
I am but i don't exist somehow
I lose myself in those eyes again
We talk endless hours
We share a strange silence
We share her dreams and desires
My ears hopeful of a promise
Maybe its not about a promise
Maybe its not about me
Maybe its just in my mind
Maybe its just not in this life time
I glare at the computer
Stuck in a moment
The shadow, the desire , a life
Just stuck in a moment together...
In the mind,heart and her inner self
Yet I see another shadow linger by
In those spaces that I reckon were mine
We laugh we glare we look into each others eyes
I reach out and see a reflection in that twinkle
A reflection which is not mine
A hope that does not have me
I smile back like I did not notice
I get back and toss on my bed
I am but i don't exist somehow
I lose myself in those eyes again
We talk endless hours
We share a strange silence
We share her dreams and desires
My ears hopeful of a promise
Maybe its not about a promise
Maybe its not about me
Maybe its just in my mind
Maybe its just not in this life time
I glare at the computer
Stuck in a moment
The shadow, the desire , a life
Just stuck in a moment together...
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
Update from the land of safaris
Been a while since I posted an update..I guess I owe it to my blog space to at least bless it with a few bytes of garbled gibberish/ so called thoughts, information whatever..
For now I am seated at a logistics office in Johannesburg (South Africa) amidst the wilderness trying to probably take an account of where I am. The last year has kind of gotten me disoriented in terms of belonging. Was in Noida for a while and traveled to Kolkata,Pune,Hyderabad,Chennai, Indore, Bhopal for work and personal stuff. Finally got on a plane and landed here. The place at the outset came as a surprise - Beautiful landscape (not very rich with vegetation though), Clean, Very competitive infrastructure, but at the same time poverty and crime which you see and hear about kind of makes one restrained. Connectivity is probably the biggest handicap of this country. Cells phone lines drop like apples did in Newtons time, Internet connection is as difficult to own as easy it is to probably hit upon gold out here. Call rates are explosively high and people probably love just being on their own with the wild life and humongous number of places which can keep you busy all weekends.
Life out here is not particularly easy since I commute a distance of 50 kms everyday one way to work. Would ideally take me 15 minutes..but the traffic jams are almost a regular scene and so..an hour on the road is most common. Of course I have the honour and privilege of listening to this radio channel called - Lotus FM which kind of connects you back home. Most of the time it plays bhajans or gives you telgu lessons. Yesterday we had this dude teaching Urdu and he translated iftafaq as : Union:) But yeah that keeps me entertained on the way back and forth office.
The news headlines and the stories you hear kind of scare you but I have met most wonderful people all over the country so far. Its just when you are driving and someone stops and implores you for some money, you are filled with ambivalent feelings. Should I stop and help or will he just harm me if I pull down my window?? This is the most sad part. None of my experiences so far have gotten me to believe that the place is unsafe. But then again you do read and hear of things happening around which keep you guarded.
The weekends have a couple of safaris, adventure sports lined up. I hope time does sail and a sense of belonging does sink in. I hope to also find sometime to post a few updates. Till then Adios.
For now I am seated at a logistics office in Johannesburg (South Africa) amidst the wilderness trying to probably take an account of where I am. The last year has kind of gotten me disoriented in terms of belonging. Was in Noida for a while and traveled to Kolkata,Pune,Hyderabad,Chennai, Indore, Bhopal for work and personal stuff. Finally got on a plane and landed here. The place at the outset came as a surprise - Beautiful landscape (not very rich with vegetation though), Clean, Very competitive infrastructure, but at the same time poverty and crime which you see and hear about kind of makes one restrained. Connectivity is probably the biggest handicap of this country. Cells phone lines drop like apples did in Newtons time, Internet connection is as difficult to own as easy it is to probably hit upon gold out here. Call rates are explosively high and people probably love just being on their own with the wild life and humongous number of places which can keep you busy all weekends.
Life out here is not particularly easy since I commute a distance of 50 kms everyday one way to work. Would ideally take me 15 minutes..but the traffic jams are almost a regular scene and so..an hour on the road is most common. Of course I have the honour and privilege of listening to this radio channel called - Lotus FM which kind of connects you back home. Most of the time it plays bhajans or gives you telgu lessons. Yesterday we had this dude teaching Urdu and he translated iftafaq as : Union:) But yeah that keeps me entertained on the way back and forth office.
The news headlines and the stories you hear kind of scare you but I have met most wonderful people all over the country so far. Its just when you are driving and someone stops and implores you for some money, you are filled with ambivalent feelings. Should I stop and help or will he just harm me if I pull down my window?? This is the most sad part. None of my experiences so far have gotten me to believe that the place is unsafe. But then again you do read and hear of things happening around which keep you guarded.
The weekends have a couple of safaris, adventure sports lined up. I hope time does sail and a sense of belonging does sink in. I hope to also find sometime to post a few updates. Till then Adios.
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