Fragile!

Life is very fragile and all twines delicately woven...Balance is the key to equilibrium...and yet the most interesting moments are stirred by the imbalances. I have had an interesting day and all I can say is that I have felt, a variety of things. I have learnt from small moments. I have spoken to myself, I have been busy, free, hurt and touched. I cannot describe the day, but been listening to a song by R.E.M

Very cliched and possibly odd but so what??

When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on
Don't let yourself go, 'cause everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes

Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go, (hold on)
When you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on

'Cause everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends
Everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand
If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone

If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
When you think you've had too much of this life to hang on

Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
Everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes
And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on
Everybody hurts. You are not alone

And so I believe hurt is company!;-) I am about to crash, knowing that realization has dawned yet again and am I glad!

Randomness

Every time I walk, thoughts rush past. I wish I had a voice recorder and I just captured those fleeting pieces of randomness. Anyways, off late sleeplessness has had the better of me and watching the fan in the emptiness of my room, I have had several strings of conversations with myself. Today was a lovely evening, wonderful weather and just looking at the green trees brush themselves against each other was soothing. I realized, if you open your ears, you will see. One sense leads to so many others and someday I hope, all of them can work in unison to give you a perfect experience. Its like the eyes, you look at them and it draws you to something more deep. Or a voice that you can listen to that makes you smell the fragrances just like that.Been reading a book - Difficult daughters. Given to me years ago...pretty good so far, talks about a woman who lived life torn between being herself, a sister, a lover and mother. I wonder why, we take so many different forms and why can't we just be. Some even get past life never meeting themselves. What a pity! I have had bouts of absolute ecstasy and depression all at once in the last few days. I used to wonder which part is true- the left or the right of my brain! How is it possible to experience pain and joy all at once in the same moment? I guess, this makes me wonder if finding the answer is the purpose of life even or is the purpose of life just experiencing it? In fact should life even have a purpose or is the purpose insignificant?

I watch the sky every night
Looking for a star, a sign, a something
All I rejoice is "Nothing"!
All I experience is the "Quest"
And yet I know, tomorrow the sky will be different.


Enough randomness for a day! Will now go back to my playlists and sleeplessness.

Shaayari...

Shaayari likhi hai, yun hi kabhi fursat mai, kabhi bhool se...In alfazon ko rakhne mai socha, koi neki nahin, duniya aakhir kitne shaayaron ko jhel chuki!

"Raat baaki hai baat baaki hai

aaj sochta hai dil? kya tu mera saaki hai?"

"Justajoo nahin, aarazoo nahin

Yeh kaun shaks chal raha hai, zara mud ke dekh

Ranjh bhi nahin, pyaar bhi nahin

Ye kya silsila hai zara mud ke dekh

Yeh shart tho kahin zindagi ne ki hi nahin

Shaks ko ruh or silsile ko koi wajah bhi de.

Kya gilah, kya yakeen, kya sahi!

Ye kya shayaari bhi! zara mud ke tu dekh! "

Bas aaj ke liye shaayad itna hi.

Circle of life

I gazed, I explored, I found!
I experienced, I enjoyed, I renounced!

Cycles of life repeat. They seem so different each time they begin and yet so similar at the end.I am strangely learning yet and waiting to experience the same thing all over again. Each time hoping the end will be something different.