Remind me!

I am trying to remember.
What was I like before I made a few choices?
Did I chat long hours in silence or had some random stories to say?
If I did run impulsively across cities to catch a few fleeting moments?
If I had a picture of sunshine, frogs and hoped to catch a glimpse of that reflection up the hill?
If I found laughter in the most trivial of jokes and moments?
If I did think of a flaming in Mumbai that I would talk to and set free someday.
If I thought I would make a lot of smiles seem worthwhile and hold back tears for a good reason?
I am just trying to remember and thought maybe you might help.
Because I think the shadow that I left behind is closer to you than to me!