Passion not fashion!

Is passion a good thing? I always wondered. It drains a lot of thought, seeks a lot of focus and most importantly just makes stuff mean a whole lot. Some people get past life without intensity. They are the ones who can re-adjust, re-focus, change and possibly cope with life better. The intense ones always seek a lot more, finding it harder to let go and adapt to change. The experience! some might argue is what life is about. But at the end of it- sometimes I wonder, is it really? I mean what if life was finally an end result and some get exactly there with less work?

All of this comes to my mind because maybe today I am at crossroads between passion and passion (really) again! I wonder if it is time I even give myself another choice or do I just succumb and accept this is me! Though I know, I can let go, I know I can move on, but the moment is what does it for me! It has to be true, complete and passionate! So is there really hope for me or will I need an energy drink at the end of life for how tiring it might have been?

Dark Temptations

Chocolates they say are best dark!
Sometimes minty!
Wrapped like temptation,
Waiting to lure...

There you are sitting at the cafe
Reading a book, texting, sipping on coffee
Wondering? Maybe about why iguanas are they way they are!
Or contemplating how the next hour would go past.

The dark temptation catches your eye
Wondering if it would pine and lie covered.
Or will it today unwrap and melt to be one with you!
You look, wink, reach out and seem distracted and text again!

The feeling of being held is amazing
The wait daunting.
Pressed to reply, you put it down.
Slowly you start to unwrap the indulgence.

You nibble, savor, continue to seek the music
It takes a moment to revel the taste
It takes a moment for it to begin to melt
You read, look at your phone and just continue to wonder

Over many such wraps and unwraps, you get to the last bite
The delight knows not, how many expressions you displayed!
The last of it is left wondering..."Did you love it?
Now that I am one with you, I wonder....

Would you be tempted if it was just me?
Or would it take a book, the cafe, the music,
the romance, the texts, the iguanas
To all come together and get me to melt in you?"

Oh well temptation will never know and the tempted will savor the chocolate as dark as it may seem!

When flights are long

Its a long journey....
My fingers are crossed:-d
My mind half shut!
Eyes blind but open.

I play my music to shut me off.
And yet time inches slowly...
Is this about faith or learning to let go?
I know i have to wait and then i ll know.

This time it seemed the door did not shut
Before i arrived,
I believe! And yet skeptical I am
Willing to be lured by surprises and unmoved by destiny.

Have you ever felt like life can be paused, the world can go by.
Or you can run and the world stands still. And yet it would not make a difference.
That is when like Buddha says: "Maybe we come to terms with the fact that we are alone after all; and the world a trajectory for several individual trespassers"

When one travels 10000 miles!

Today has been a strange day. I have not had much to do or had the excitement to make the most of the last day in this almost second home called the "Bay Area". Every time I do get on a plane to come to the US. I am super excited because I do get to see and meet most of my strongest connections in life. All my friends from ever and all known paths to traverse. However almost every time, I wait to get on that plane and get back. I guess I have in my mind figured out what is "home". There is something more compelling back here that wants me to go return. Is it the calm of my apartment? Is it the drive to work? Is it the music room that awaits when I get back from work? Is it my fishes? Or really is it the long tea breaks at work? The sunshine that I seek every morning? Or the moon that I guess I will begin to look out for every night? I don't know what it is but who cares! I had a very fulfilling trip and felt like I met the most important people that I cared for and in ways that made me happy. Thanks A, S and T for the lovely time I had in the bay. I thank all the babies who just made the trip worthwhile and also made me realize that I am ready or maybe not for motherhood! I feel very blessed for finding home so many miles away and for having the most wonderful friends who make life seem so worth it. Will miss you guys a lot more than I say I will. Yes! Yes! Even though I might want to board that plane. I know when I land I will miss those conversations, those bitching sessions, the coffee or tea rounds and the randomness. I will, I know always be told, I have the most weird set of friends. Well what else do you expect from a weirdo such as me!